Beyond Betrayal

Summer died that night. I was sixteen, set up on a date with a friend’s brother, I went reluctantly for fear of being different and dateless.

My world fell apart as I was used like a non-person, thrown and battered, brutally raped and left staggering on the cold beach.

I sat shivering and alone until dawn outside the house party, being refused entry as curfew had passed.

The chaperoning couple sent me home. Disgraced in front of my friends and humiliated, I was unable to share what had happened.

My shame was unbearable as I was sure it was my fault somehow. The feelings of betrayal, disg and fear blew up to monstrous size as the hours passed.

My parents knew me well and realized that something more than my being late for curfew was going on. My dad hit the nail on the head, but I denied it had happened.

The bruises, both on my body and the ones inside were as self evident as I was self effacing.

Something besides summer died that night.

Straights and Creeks

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A lunar pull apart.

Born of self-same shelf.

Dig deep, Ye Pictorial Builders,

Ye Leatherneck Drivers!

One, young living coral.

Another, ancient decayed pluff.

May you tender the shelf.

Let your lines be straight.

Above the orb on reef and marsh

Life and death flow in sync.

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Dedicated to

RSD III

Photographer: Tanya Ackerman

Unfinished Thoughts

Ah! The mess is the latter thought…
Unfinished now, yet not for naught…

A writer’s dream, fulfilled in my very hoping,

Complete in silence, speculation, unencumbered of mind.

Ah! The mess is the latter thought.

As More of Tudor’s Court once evoking,

“Words, words, words. It is all only words.”  

Less than dream, featureless, exuberantly blind.

Unfinished now, yet not for naught. 

Delicate Ravenous Beauty

Virgin stars bearing their beauty openings….
..consuming the Light

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Morning

Virgin Stars

Bearing their Beauty

Openings

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Ravenous

Waiting Blooms

Consuming the Light

Intensity

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Beware

Wandering Innocents

Appearing most Delicate

Stings!

Loved Forever II

Blazing Life! Claims my Being, Undoes my World!
Forever-Now!

Held, so close to my heart.

Wonders-Blazing Bright.

A love, fierce and hungry,

Forever-Before.

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Before became Now.

Four became Six.

Wonders became Whos.

Blazing Life!

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Wonder

Names my heart,

Claims my being,

Undoes my world,

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As my Fist Two Whos

Forever-Then.

So their own,

Forever-Now,

Are and Will Be,

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Loved-Forever.